Too Much Pain

I haven't written much lately cause things have been tough and I haven't felt well for a long time.  My shoulder has been the main source of pain but I've had a couple new pains.  Well, one was an old pain that went away and has now returned, which is the feeling of my skin being pulled tight in opposite directions.  It's very uncomfortable.  The other thing is I think I'm starting to get migraines.  I get most of the symptoms but I've never had real problems with headaches and never a migraine.  I also have experienced a few of the triggers that can cause a migraine on the days that I've experienced this horrible headache pain.  I don't know.  Something I need to see my doctor about.  I also had a frenectomy done last Monday and my goodness it has caused me a great deal of pain.  I didn't think it would hurt like it does or last as long as the pain has.  It's been a week, and I'm still in pain from it.  It hurts to eat, hurts to talk, and just hurts to sit here typing.  I know this pain will go away but, man it's been incredibly bothersome.

So I've been spending a great deal of my days, uncomfortable and in pain, feeling awful.  And for too long now.  I had a second MRI done on my shoulder this last Friday.  I hope nothing terrible shows up but it's at the point now, almost four months since the pain and inability to lift my arm and use it started, that I'd be OK if something bad did show up this time as long as there was an answer to why this is happening and a possible solution to fix it.  That's how bad this shoulder problem is, that I would be OK with bad news.  She said a radiologist would read it that day and would get the results to my doctor within 24-48 working hours so I hope to hear something by Tuesday.  Having the MRI was uncomfortable so it made my pain worse.  This weekend has been extremely rough with everything.  I've just been lying down, often with a cool cloth over my eyes, taking pain meds, off the computer, alternating between icing and putting a warm rice bag on my shoulder, and doing a whole lot of nothing.

It is Father's Day today.  I gave my pops a card and a small present this morning.  I think he's enjoying his day today.  Despite any arguments we have, he is still my daddy and I love him.  Thanks, Daddy, for all that you've done and do to make my world better.

(My dad and me at the top of The Rock in NYC)