First Pictures of Any Part of Me Published

Today I posted a couple pics of my neck on my FB page. I was looking at them on my phone and decided to just be brave and post them so people can see a little bit of what I'm talking about when I speak of my surgeries or my scars. I was so nervous but I hit "upload" before I could change my mind and I almost immediately starting getting responses to the pictures; good positive responses about how brave I was to post them and how beautiful of a person I still was. All these positive responses just made me want to break down. I didn't think I'd get the kind of responses I've been getting. I was really really nervous and thought for a quick minute before I began to get flooded with responses that I made the wrong decision and was going to delete the pics.

While I was on FB, a friend of mine started up a chat with me and began to praise me for what I did with those pictures and a couple things that she said struck me and sort of helped change my perspective on my scars. She said, "they are a map darling, they are a map of your life, your pain and your triumph, fuck anyone that tries to make you feel shame....including you." I thought, wow, how wise and what a wonderful way to be able to look at my body in the mirror and see a map of my life, of my pain and my triumph instead of a bunch of nasty scars. I don't know how soon I'll be able to do that. But I'm going to try everyday because as she added in the end, "..including you," I should not make myself feel ashamed either.


So now I'm going to show you followers. Here goes: