The Language of Recovery

"Life's circumstances are not always what you might wish them to be.  The pattern of life does not necessarily go as you plan.  Beyond any understanding, you may at times be led in different directions that you never imagined, dreamed or designed.  Yet if you had never put any effort into choosing a path, or tried to carry out your dream, then perhaps you would have no direction at all.
Rather than wondering about or questioning the direction your life has taken, accept the fact that there is a path before you now.  Shake off the 'why's' and 'what if's,' and rid yourself of confusion.  Whatever was - is in the past.  Whatever is - is what's important.  The past is a brief reflection.  The future is yet to be realized. Today is here.
Walk your path one step at a time - with courage, faith and determination.  Keep your head up, cast your dreams to the stars.  Soon your steps will become firm and your footing will be solid again.  A path that you never imagined will become the most comfortable direction you could have ever hoped to follow.
Keep your belief in yourself and walk into your new journey.  You will find it magnificent, spectacular, and beyond your wildest imaginings."  ~Vicki Silvers

Life's circumstances are not what I wished them to be.  And maybe life never would have been as I wished it to be but I was happy living in New York City living my life and trying to make my dreams come true.  And then a fateful day happened four and a half years ago and I have questioned my life's direction ever since.  I think in some way I have accepted the path that lies before me now.  I have accepted what life is now for me.  But what I haven't done is dream again.  I don't know where my life is going and that upsets me, frustrates me.  I still want to hold on to a dream that I've had since I was in 6th grade but that dream may have to change and that too upsets me.  I question all the time the direction my life has taken and I know I need to stop doing that cause it only makes me unhappy.  I need to learn to accept what is and open my eyes to the path before me now.  Learn to dream again and cast them to stars above.  I need to learn to adapt to what life has thrown at me.  Most importantly I need to believe in myself again and walk into my new journey with my head held high with courage.